Hectic life

2.40 am. Shouldn't I suppose to be happily sleeping and dreaming?

I screwed up everything.
I screwed up my Land law.
I wrote crap in my assignment.
Skipping medications.
Bad bad hair days.
Cough cough, flu flu and fever.
Car honks, honks, and honks.

I felt useless.

Ken just asked me how am I gonna celebrate my birthday.

11 November 2009, 2.50a.m
Jeannie has no thoughts in celebrating her birthday at all.

All craps that are currently stuck in her mind:
- Is there valid and enforceable trust?
- Section 53,52 Law of Property Act 1952
- Fully Secret trust, Half Secret trust. blah blah blah.

Having extra 3 hours Evidence class during my birthday, and continued with Tort class till the evening. Evidence class again early in the morning on Friday. Land law on Saturday. Law of Trusts on Sunday. How to go out and celebrate? =X

Distance?

Alex says: Its not the distance that matters, it’s her attitude problem!!!
I say: Its not the distance that matters, it’s that I don't have confidence in neither him nor me myself.

My prediction would be true one fine day…or perhaps it is happening right now?

Whatever it is, I've change my thoughts.

I don't like those days, those feelings..

which requires guess on everything...

LOVE is simple, isn't it?

I'm starting a new chapter of my life. =)

Why?

Pills are part of my life now.

I've been asking "why would this happen to me?'

Effect of medication.
Waking up middle of the night,
wanting to vomit
to throw up,
but nothing comes out...
and I waited till I'm too tired...

No one knows how suffering it is. and this continues...for a year!!!

I guess I've sacrificed too much for my studies as well as my so-called future
and well, its my pay-back time.

How I wish I could change these

to the following...=)

Don't worry folks...I will be okay...

Big relief

I saw an email with the following title



CLRI2: Problems Viewing Uploaded Research Essay
(CLRI=Common Law Reasoning and Institutions)


sent by the VLE support officer in my University of London email mailbox.
This scared me off as if they failed to view my uploaded research assignment, I gonna get a big '0' for my CLRI paper.



and it took hell long for the page to load...



things that ran through my mind while waiting for the page to load was

"damnit, why don't I check this bloody mailbox...?"
"WTF, why don't the VLE officer send an email to my primary email inbox?"
"got people check this mailbox one meh?"
"man, I'm so gonna fail...T.T"



Page loaded

"Dear students, some students have experienced problems....,it seems to be a problem of our software..."



Suddenly realised about the date when the email was sent: 17 April 2009
even way before I submitted the assignment...



ahhh...what a big relief...
LLB?
It seems to be my biggest wonder ever...

I'm back

Exam actually ended a month ago.. =)

The reason for not updating?
1. Unknown to myself, lots of my friends out there are reading it. I was quite shock when i get to know about this. [Told Creax a.k.a Chuan and i think he was shock too..=P]

2. I tried to change the blog template but I was pi*sed with the complicating CSS codes.. =(

3. Lazy but was busy at the same time. =.=

Today’s task…
MAIL CHECKING
Yeah, it’s easy for all of you out there but it’s quite a different story for me.
That the “consequence” I get for not being online during exam season.. Sigh.

Have to do it now or else the accumulation would definitely kills me off.
That's what I did when I was bored with those mails..

Quite fun what!!! =)

Bye bye all...=)

距离考试倒数31天

这次来是来请假的，接下来的两个月内应该不会再有update了

最近确实过得很不好

没有把自己的脑袋搞得很累都会睡不着
前几天，4.00a.m, 一躺在床上，闭上眼睛就想起了ombudsmen
提醒了我还有多少事情等着我去做,
就这样又失眠了。

睡着后…

曾经有一次梦见自己坐在exam-hall翻 statute book，赫然发现所有重要的 Parliamentary Acts都没有highlight起来…就这样半夜三更被吓醒，一个人躲在被窝里哭了好久好久…

这就是我所foresee到的。还好我搬了出来，不然家人看见我现在的样子，他们肯定会很难过。现在一个星期回家一次，他们看见的是我脸上所挂着的笑容，背后的痛楚少一个人知道不是更好吗?

3 hours per paper
4 out of 8 questions to answer
45 minutes at most per question
5 full pages of answer script each question
36 lines each page
10 words each line
360 words per page
1800 words per question
40 words to write each minute.

Mission impossible huh?
就因为这样，最近都在锻炼自己的stamina
很辛苦，真的很辛苦
写完后手一直震个不停…
这个我绝对忍受得了，
疑惑的是
连我自己都看不懂的字，examiners会看得懂吗?

我是强者，今后的那30天也许会更难过
我仍然会咬紧牙根继续熬下去
跌倒了后，哭完以后
我一定会勇敢地站起来。
这段日子里，我并不孤单
因为房间外有很美的夜景看
在此upload 一些和你们分享...^^

身边的朋友们都变成了zombie
Fellow zombies, gambateh together,
Do take care and don’t get sick,
Fightin’…=)

明天虽然是sunday,我却还有连续5个小时的lecture

下个星期又有visiting lecturer from University of London,又要准备连续6天6.30pm-9.30pm的课了

我要走了...

完成了我的legal research后就应该不常online了
朋友们，有事就SMS我吧!
部落的朋友们，我们两个月后再会了哦~
God bless.. ^^

照片。他

做assignment做到很显，上网到处逛逛，却让我看见他的照片，是他和另一个女生一起合照的照片。照片中的他头发有点长了，笑容依然腼腆，就和当初我第一次看见他满足地笑的时候一样。

近来很少想他了，理由是很忙?脑袋负荷不了? 还是因为已经告诉自己要放下了?又或则我根本就已经放下了?如果问我看见照片之后的感觉? 我不知应该怎么回答你，确实有点痛，可是又有点想祝福他们的感觉。

和他聊天时，
我:是我先说离开你的涡，
他:可是你伤得比我还重涡。

我只能说你在感情上比我来得理智。我知道你会读，所以我想说和你分手后，我再也没有找男朋友，也拒绝了好几位不是因为你，我只是想一个人过过。相反的，我希望你不要再拒绝你身边的那些狂风浪蝶，好好找个女生来照顾你吧~

我确实要想想是不是该停止写关于你和我的事，原因是不想让你想得太多，有压力。再来是我可怜的读者们，一定在说我写来写去都是这一样吧?

最近生了智慧牙，而且还是两颗。智慧牙啊智慧牙，拜托不要痛哦~ 我并不想考试时还要吃止痛药。

完美句点

对你，我最近常常只能表现得一笑置之，内心的想法连我自己都搞不清楚，内心的呐喊我也不想加以理会。

很多人说我很坚强，和一般女生不一样，但再坚强也会有累倒跨下的一天，所以他们都问我为何不再寻找一个把自己捧在手心里的疼爱的人? 他们告诉我幸福其实很简单，然而目前呈现在我面前的却是那么地复杂，这也许意味着这是一份不属于我的幸福？

最近觉得你变了，就和我当初所预言的一样[我的预言]，喜欢你的真，喜欢你重来都不撒谎，喜欢你的冲动，喜欢你的坦率，想说的话一定会说出口，喜欢你的占有欲，喜欢你帮我分享难题，喜欢看你吃醋的样子...但现在...你再也不是我喜欢的那个他了。

我只知道，没有你，我也许没有比从前快乐，但我依然那么地幸福。

考试要到了，是时候让所有的一切画下个完美的句点了。

Moved out from home

我搬出来了…currently staying at wangsa maju. 没有错，你没有看错，是wangsa maju …很多人就很疑惑地问我，你换college了吗? 我没有哦，还是Brickfields Asia College, 座落于KL Sentral对面。

朋友们都认为我脑残了? 其实选择住这里是因为靠近LRT station，而且比较多student house, 方便，也具备了我所有需要的东西，这样的理由对你们convincing吗? 部分的朋友认为我很任性，为何有家不要住，非要选择自己一个人住在外面呢? 这代表你很不了解我，或则你没有读过我所有之前的blog post. =P

我喜欢这样的生活，上课放学，所有地事情都只需要对自己负责。没有错，在家里很快乐，而快乐的时间总是过得特别快，什么都没有做，摇摇晃晃就过了一天。相反地，现在自己一个人，时间真的过得很慢很慢，算是对自己的一种惩罚，惩罚自己过去9个月浪费了太多时间?

Daddy, Mummy, 不知你们是否觉得我很任性，不过还是要谢谢你们对我的包容和支持。还有他，当他知道我搬了出来后，处处叮咛我万事都要小心，虽然我认为我们的缘分已经尽了，却还能拥有你这一个酱caring地好朋友，你不是我第一个男朋友，不过朋友变情人再变朋友，你是第一个，感谢你。^^

Housemate们，虽然之前都不认识他们，不过可以感受到他们都很好。你们肯定会觉得我是典型的bookworm, 一直躲在房里，其实我也不想要的，只不过我的死期就快到了，我真的无从选择。

朋友们，允许我当两个月宅女，yumcha, gathering之类的都不需要算我那份罗~

倒数63天，回忆我所有之前的考试，老天真的很倦顾我，没有很努力却都能考到不错的成绩。这一次我不能fail，这只是第一年，也是最容易的一年，如果这样fail下去，当我考到CLP(律师执照) 时也许已经40岁了。拼一拼，虽然University of London的考试真的很难，至少我有拼过，就算不能，我也没有遗憾了。天啊，愿我真的有足够的意志挨过这些接下来的日子。

P.S. Sorry again fellow friends who couldn't read chinese wordings.. =.=

Idiot

I burst out with tears after class, cried to sleep arond 9.00pm and woke up at 12.00am with anger.

His SMS-es

23 February 2009, 5.56pm - Everything has done. U can move in on sunday. I hope u won't ffk [Fong fei kei in cantonese] me if not i'm in serious trouble.

He agreed to receive my payment before 4.30 pm on 24 February right before my class.

24 February 2009, 1.44pm - I'm sorry to tell u that the room has rented out. A minute ago a guy just bank in to me.

With all the legal knowledge I have, he is absolutely wrong in breaching the contract. He did not mention that whoever comes first with the payment will get the room. He asked me not to ffk him and yet i'm the one who kena ffk from him. I will definitely sue you if I'm not having my exam that soon though i know it is not practical to do so.

Mum deals with him as i have to attend my common law reasoning class in the afternoon. He is seriously a coward and hand the phone to his mum. His mum then admitted

1. That he rented it out to his friend's friend after promising me. [Then don't rent it out or promise me at the first place]
2. She then added that let him learn a lesson from this incident. [Harlo, Mrs chong, are you trying to mean that you don't know how to teach your son, impliedly? and your son have to learn from all these incidents sacrificing innocent people like me?]

I am damn frustrated with my revision timetable and i thought i can settle down after getting confirmation from him. I got no enough time to study for my revision classes and yet STILL have to sapre time out finding another room to rent. Thanks to this bloddy idiot.

EDDY CHONG TIAN SHEN

I never seen people like him in my life. You think you are a kid playing with sands? Don't ever let me see you or your BIG name again in my life.

最后一次

一位17岁少女的刻骨铭心的爱情创作。
没有人知道这个女孩的名字，但是大家能确认的是这个女孩已经死了。

Listen to it.

在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里 舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你 但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去

先走了 去了好远的地方
不能再陪你看日出 等不到天亮
所有回忆 抹去 却并不容易生
死由天决定 不要太伤心

在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里 舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你 但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去

在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里 舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你 但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去
我 永远 爱你。

对于这首歌有很多种说法
1.当时她得了癌症，这首歌是要给她男朋友的。
2.这首歌是讲述那女孩子被男友抛弃，在自杀前写的一首歌。
3.她的男友生了重病，然后她写了这首歌给他，他去世了，她也跟着自杀。

我听到的版本是第一个说法，以歌词看起来好像比较像我听回来的这一个吧…Whatever it is, 她的爱真的很伟大…有多少人可以那么勇敢的死在最爱的人的怀里呢? 换成是我，我一定会离开他，不让他知道这残酷的一切。

P/S: 不要告诉我这是一个骗局，不要把我拉回现实的世界，至少让我感受到这世界上还有真挚的爱。

Valentines Special - Watch This!!!

Sis recommended this video from facebook and we both laughed till our heads off after watching it named songs not to dedicate for valentines. Arh...impressed.. I was a player of maple story and understand how hard is it to make this... =)

DO WATCH THIS...Its really funny.. =) [especially thung lim...I think you will laugh till your heads off too!!!]

Late birthday pressie

I finally got a desired birthday present for my dearest baby sister after such a long search. Sis, Lynn said that since we keep forgetting her birthday as we are always busy with our New Year celebration, we then decided to buy something she wanted. Ta-Da, a complete set of learner’s guitar.

Some addition, pictures of the birthday celebration dated months ago.

Birthday Cake...

And

Birthday present for my mummy.

Crystal from HOJB, Sunway Pyramid.

2 posts per day… I think that’s the maximum I can spare out from my time. Currently busy seeking for room to rent and of course, my studies. Coming back this weekend to update post on my Chinese new year celebration if there ain’t any assignments or test next week.

Time to go back to studies I guess. Bye all... =)

奇幻旅程？

04/02/2009, 因为晚上赶assignment赶到早上4点才入睡, 早上吓醒时发现已经睡迟了,12点多朋友约了我, 而我1p.m又开始考final exam,之后还有presentation, 好不容易赶上巴士后, 有趣的旅程就开始咯~

事件(1)

当巴士缓缓绕进sunway mentari 时, 路边有一大票警察, 其中的几个还拿着一大支手枪，很有pose地站着, 这不像是normal的road block, 难道这里是crime scene, 发生过了什么惊天动地的事? 平时遇到这样的情景我一定会很兴奋，因为即将有好玩的事情要发生了 (但是为什么要是今天叻? 天啊，我已经迟到了啦!) 警察先生们不会要检查巴士的吧?


哪里知道, 那个巴士司机竟然停了下来, 接着就有几位警察先生上了巴士. [yum-gong lo, 现在我 confirm 迟到了啦…] 警察先生们没有叫全部乘客拿出IC, 不过他们都很seng-mok地各自拿出了IC, 我当然也不例外, [突然发现自己的IC不知道有多少个centuries没有拿出来了…@.@]


查到我前面的那位时，他竟然show出一大堆烂烂的纸张，接着还跟警察先生negotiate了一下，警察先生二话不说就把他拷了起来, [这好像是我生平第一次看到真正的手拷? 还是那么地近距离...]天啊，这时候还真的有点怕怕。


警察先生没有查我，没有看我，也没有问我tengok IC? 我以为我一定会中招，原因是染了一头golden-brown的头发后，很多人都说我不象华人，更夸张的是有个陌生人还问我是不是malaysian...是不是因为我长得像好人啊？


之后又拷了另一个人，奇怪的是他们在被查的时候表现得很镇定，如果是我我一定会找机会逃跑，果然是老手，想象如果我是警察，肯定看漏了眼。更奇怪的是他们被拷的时候都没有任何想要反抗的意愿，给我感觉是，＂拷我啦，拷我啦！＂，朋友说他们被拷惯了，也许吧，哪像我？连手拷都是第一次看过... =.=



事件(2)

心情平复后，我开始做presentation前最后一次的准备。之后有个印度Apek上了巴士，他第一个给我的感觉是怪怪的，原因是他的眼睛包上了bandage, ［虽然有些人刚动完眼部手术，包着不会很奇怪］但当他坐下以后［他就坐在我前面］，他就开始用刚刚包着眼睛的bandage来包着他的嘴巴...啊？


不过人家怎么怪也不到我管，back to my preparation. …


他竟然在巴士里大谈电话，连我带着耳机都能听清楚他的对话内容，我能怎么办？巴士又不是我的，只好把MP4的音量调高咯～


底着头努力在背我的scripts....突然感觉有很强烈的目光往我身上投，错觉吗？还是看看好...

抬起头看，原来是那位怪伯伯用他的拇指指着我，嘴巴一直不停地骂我，基于刚刚调高了音量的关系，我听不到他在说什么，在我还没反应过来时，他就转身开始转移目标骂他身边的另一个华人女生，拿下耳机，我大概听到的是apa-apa, lu diam diam....XxX...huh huh? u ingat saya tak tahu....


之后我赶快下巴士转搭LRT，奇怪的是那位女生也很快速的跳下了巴士? 我自认没有长得很样衰，我也没有得罪他啊～为什么要骂我？

哈皮牛也 Happy Chinese New Year

农历新年又到了也～

今年农历新年的气氛真的很热闹哦，沉浸在一片喜气洋洋的气氛中，不禁让人感觉很幸福，很和谐。此外，也很庆幸学院给了我蛮长的假日，虽然有无尽的assignments，开学后还有presentation和final exam要考，不过这几天一定要好好地享受了，是时候好好update下我滴部落，还有煲煲剧了：

幸福的抉择 I Do

Click入黄金屋

碧血盐枭 Sweetness In The Salt...

我来了啊～ XD

最后，祝愿你们哈皮牛也，身体健康，事事如意吉祥哦～

Wishing all of you abundance of wealth, joy, prosperity and good fortune this chinese new year. =)

Disappointments

The only thing I wanted is a clarification from you.
Is it really that hard to do so?
I don’t hope we lose chance again due to a stupid statement.

Nonetheless

I admit that I’m a serious fool taking into account with surrounding circumstances.
After all, it doesn’t really matters.

*Disappointments rule me again today*
What kind of life am I having? Don’t even have time to be emo. Working around wit tons of workloads and finally discovered that I might lose people who I wanted badly, taken up by girls out there. At the end of the day, I got no choice but to get back to work on my assignments. =(

p.s. Thanks William who always bumps out at the ideal time giving me advice regardless me don’t really bother to help when he is prone to problems.