Saturday, November 29, 2008

不执着了

刻意的忘记,才會记起 
不经意的记起, 昰因为始终没有忘记.

我以为,那些只是过去的事。
我以为,我可以重新地好起来。
我以为,我可以重新地开始。
原来,我太高估自己了,我一样都办不到。

雨季,总是让我的心情特别地悲伤。我的人生故事中遇见了你,是一个奇迹。遇上了一个将近完美的男人,却又很戏剧化般地离开了你。只能怨在错的时间遇上了对的人。那么多封记载着我想对你说的话,编辑好的短信息,却一封也没有勇气发送出去,如果我都把他们发送给你,我们今天的结局会是怎样的?

就像我之前的那几段感情,有些人是可以被时间轻易抹去的,犹如尘土。这一次却很不一样, 真的很不一样. 我不想再那么执着了,将我们的缘分交给了上帝,就让一切随缘吧~

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Food...food...=)

Went to Jaya One in Pee-jay with sis after my Malaysian Studies final exam today. Enjoyed lunch with sis at SunWong, 新旺香港茶餐厅. The food there is quite similar with that available at KimGary. I don't get to take much photos as i was so tired because i only slept for 3.5 hours due to the exam. [Sounds stupid as it was just MALAYSIAN STUDIES..=( ] Okay okay, don't crap so much, let the photos take it all.. =)

I like the environment there.

This is nice, I've forgotted its name but it is some sort of Japanese mocha + Red bean ice blended]

My normal honey-lemon... forced to take this as i still can't take any coffee or tea due to the gastric pain... [Lemon also can cause gastric what? I don't give a damn lar, i love lemon drinks.. =)]


罗宋汤 [Taste nicer compared to the one in KimGary, but this seems more oily.. ]


Try this out if possible yah.. I think you would not regret after trying.. =)

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Tagged by KL

Tagged by KL, =)

RULES: Do the "Letter MEME". Tag no less than 5 other people, and leave them a comment, informing them that they have been tagged. Then copy the "How-to" Letter Meme, and finish your Journal entry.


Dear ________ (the last person who left a comment on your blog/journal):
I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ___2___ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___ .

___12___,-Your name

Basically just fill in the blanks on top based on the answers you are gonna choose below.

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - ManO.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scared
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - How awful I've felt
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B -
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain

Here we go, my answer....

Dear David (Although the last one who commented was OMS, but he was the last one when i do this tag, P/S: i don't know who is this guy? =)

I don't really know how to tell you this, but our affair is over. I think I realized it when your dog ran amok at the mental hospital and I saw you sit on my best friend. I'm sure you're scared enough to understand how awful I've felt. I'm returning the couch cushions to you, but I'll keep my virginity as a memory. You should also know that I never openly mocked Oprah Winfrey imitations.
In pain,
Jeannie.

Apa ini? Seems meaningless but i had fun.. =)
My victims: Falino, Karen, Ah thung,Creax a.k.a Chuan, Jingle

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Its here finally.

Got my study materials package from University of London (UOL). I’ve been waited for such a long long time since October and finally its here today... =)

Some leaflets, books and the student handbook.
Chapter guides.


Study pack for all 4 subjects.

Textbooks!!! I think i'll be having a real harsh time with them..@.@

Gosh, this is just part of my books. I already had so many books to study before receiving this package. And what now? I’ve been flooded by books. Can’t imagine how am I gonna finish studying all this books before my exam in the month of may next year. *Arghhh*, I think I need to reschedule my timetable and spend more time studying.. *Sigh*

*Any idea how to have better memory apart from taking vitamin B complex? I hate them, they stinks.*

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Gambateh Baby

*Since class is starting late tomorrow, come catch up with some updates here. =) *

Sis officially declared war with STPM. I went to her place since class ended at 1 p.m today to get her some food so that she need not to be worried of her meals. I wander around the area of wangsa maju for so long considering what to buy for her. I need to get something not too oily, not spicy, not bored for her, not too much, not too little… as her stomach is very sensitive. Finally got some Japanese mee, pastries, buns and also something to make her happy, her favourite pandan slice.

Sending some "lurve" to munch on and Vitamin C as well.

Her order >> Farewell gifts for some of her friends. [Bottle only lar, those stuffs inside she do it by herself.. XD]

My sis wasn’t there when I put all those stuffs in her room as there is another paper going on. I don’t manage to meet her but heard from her and some of my juniors that it was a disaster this year. In fact, I was pretty shocked after knowing some of the exam question. Let bygones be bygones lar, concentrate more on the rest.

GAMBATEH baby, don’t stressed up yourself too much. Remember what I said that it is just a “passport”, although it may lead your way, stressing is not a good solution and there will always be a pathway for you. To all juniors and those who are having exams out there, all the best and god bless.

Saturday, November 15, 2008

过渡期

11/11/2008
生日的前一天. 我驾着车, 突然之间脑海闪过一个念头, 很想离开这一座城市, 到一个没有人认识我的地方, 重新寻找生活的意义.

我每一天都在和时间打拼, 赶着上课, 上课赶着跟进lecturer的速度, 赶assignment, 赶ktm, 赶着K书, 这样赶赶赶过每一天, 我不否认时间过得很快, 日子过得很充实, 不过渐渐地也发觉我已经失去了我人生的意义. 我生存着的意义到底是什么? 读书上课, 考好成绩以让身边的人开心, 活了整整二十年, 原来就只有这样而已. 我没有心情庆祝自己的生日, 也不希望有任何人记得我生日.

还好这个过度期没有维持很久, 当天半夜还在赶Presentation的我, 收到了很多你们的生日祝福, 让我觉得很窝心, 也让我觉得自己很傻, 为何要想那么多, 让那么多那么多爱我的人为我操心呢? 说真的, 我自己也被这个想法吓着了, 我一向来都很任性, 想要做的事这世上没有多少个人可以阻止我, 很庆幸我当时没有直接照着我的感觉收拾行李, 拿了背包就不告而别. 好啦! 告别了这任性的想法,我要继续生活在这幸福的环境中。加油晶!!!

Monday, November 10, 2008

爱过? 默默地付出?

很久没有写中文的post了~
今天听来一句感觉还瞒有意思的话:如果分手后的两人感情依然那么好,可能性只有两个:

1) 你从来没有真正的爱过他。
2) 其中一方还在为这段感情默默地付出。



你们赞同以上这一个说法吗?看过非常多身边的朋友分手后连话都不多说一句,相反地有些却还可以若无其事的做朋友一直到老为止。依我的近况,我不便评论,原因是我最近的感情状况可以说是乱七八糟, 原来有些所编织的回忆在我们不自觉中已经深深地烙印在我们的心里,不是说要忘记就能忘记的.

有些人, 即使忘记了他的名字, 忘记了他的声音, 忘记了他的笑颜, 但想起时的感觉依然心痛.

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Sick for the whole week.. *sob*

Monday
Did my assignment and research till 3.30am. Got gastric pain and I can’t even stand properly the moment I woke up as the stretching causes extreme pain. Just imagine someone walking around the house like a hunch-back? *Lols* Skipped all the tutorial classes in morning, which makes me feel so stupid, spending so much time doing assignment and research yet can’t go to class to hand it in to my tutor. *Sigh*

Criminal lecture in the afternoon is a MUST for me as my lecturer is a superhero and I’ll be left behind far far away if I don’t attend her lecture. It was a tough time sitting in a bullet train for 3 hours while I’m in pain. Aih, I was right, she did so much that day, from provocation, voluntary manslaughter, even till suicide and infancy. Luckily I went or else I’ll be in serious trouble.

Tuesday
Rushing with my Malaysian Studies assignment. *Ignore the pain*

Wednesday
My condition never got better. I even got flu also. Went to a doctor at night and got some medicine and MC from him but the medicine don’t seems useful to me. The pain is still killing.

Gastric is actually usual for me but I never got this kind of pain before. Am I that serious this time? Many of my friends asked why I got gastric. Me myself don’t know as I never got it after shifting back home. I guess its probably due to the stress, studying hours and lack of rest. Probably too much intake of caffeine too.

Playing around with my pills while swallowing them. =)
Reminds me of one of my ex-boy who taught me how to swallow pills. Or else i won't be able to swallow pills till now. Thanks and all the best to him.

See? Same size with the silver mickey pendant I got from my sis, Xan. Haha, time to swallow it already.

I'm okay now. That is why I'm able to sit here updating my blog. No worries friends. Time to *chiong* on my studies. I rest too much the past few days. Gambateh all.